REBOOT

I’ve been thinking a lot to do this and now I mean it.
Hello!
It’s been awhile isn’t it? this crap of mine which people call “Blog” is going nowhere. I should have made the annual New-Year post which I usually do, but shit happened so, I didn’t. I had many ideas on my mind to what topic I should write for my blog, but instead I chose to sleep. It’s just, I think there’s no point of writing anymore. Besides, I don’t have any interesting story to tell. So I kept silent. But suddenly I miss writing. I miss pouring everything, feelings, emotions, imagination, anger, confusion, unsatisfaction into words. So I reread some of my posts to give me a little support or maybe idea. And thank god, it did gave me an idea. There’s one thing that came across my mind after I reread some of my posts, it was the thought of, how unprofessional-inconsistent blogger I was. It’s been six years but the way I write is stay the same. How can someone be so random and childish at a time and happily show it to the public? I am ashamed of myself. Look at how I wrote in bahasa and then the other day I wrote in english, then bahasa, and back to english again. The time I said this blog is like my diary actually I really mean it and yes it feels like my real diary. A diary of a professional moron. And I hate it. I hate when someone read my post and think the writer is so childish, inconsistent and random, what more sad is that someone who reads the post and thinks like that is, myself. I am embarassed at my own self. 

So, I decided to change. Change for the good. From now on, I will post in english, I don’t care if there’s grammar error after I post it, I just want to write, nothing else. I will post a content that has value, meaning and informative. Even if it’s my life story. I will keep posting content about Tina but it’s not my first priority. Also, I deleted some of my posts that I think really embarassing, hahahahaha. If this were my Diary, it will still be my diary but in more…serious way. So when I reread my own post I’ll feel better, get something new and useful. Not just get the feeling of nostalgia. I hope so.

Are Tina And Knoon Still Together?

Hello this is Monika Speaking.

It’s been such a loooong time I did not update anything, I’ve been so freaking busy these days, couldn’t spend the time to go here and post something.

I don’t have anything to write about but since everyone’s curious about this Tina and K break-up rumor. I’ll tell you my opinion about current relationship status between them.

First of all, I assume some of you have already know about this, so I’m just gonna tell my opinion (these are all my opinions). Some people been asking me about Tina and K status. Because there are many speculations that somehow telling us that they have broke up. And my answer to that question is Yes, they are broke up but I’m not 100% sure.

Okay, lets just say they have broke up. My guess is they are no longer together since February, or is it January or maybe in late december? 555 idk. The first speculation that leads to this break-up rumor is Knoon FINALLY SET HER INSTAGRAM ACCOUNT TO PUBLIC. You can see her on @knoon_pk , yes after all this time she sets it to public. Then after you see her instagram, you’ll know how the rumor start to spread just by looking at her feeds. I’ve been noticing something strange from the quotes she posted on her account before Christmas, and another quotes she posted after that, it somehow telling us that she’s in unstable mood, or in the big fight with someone she loves and could be that someone is Tina?. I’m not sure when exactly she sets her account to public but I think it’s after Christmas. (Correct me if I’m wrong, will you?). You know it’s her private account she can post anything she wants, she- without a doubt- posted her pictures and Tina, then why couldn’t she post some sad quotes that related to her feelings at that time? It makes sense, doesn’t it? K is having unstable mood maybe she’s sad so she wants the whole world know she’s in an unhappy situation, so she posted it. Just like when she’s in a happy situation, she posted her picture with Tina while hugging each other. She’s a human after all. A woman, normal woman. Just like everybody else.

And also about her new-year post. There is no Tina. It’s new year’s eve and she didn’t post any picture with Tina? How come? She posted pictures of them while in Japan, when attended some events, the color run event? But not in New year’s eve?? Strange isn’t it? Aaaaand in the early January she posted this picture and also another quotes.

Even in the last Valentine’s day she posted this picture.

Here comes the speculation :

is she a single woman now?

She posted those sad quotes, maybe it’s right. They are breaking-up.

But isn’t she always posting a quotes related to her mood? Which it is some kind of media-play?

Well, that is from K’s side, now let’s talk from Tina’s side. We can’t expect anything from Tina since we only know her public account which sets for her fans. So she won’t do anything obvious about her relationship status. But after the break-up rumor spreading all over the internet, she posted this picture

the one on the right is her close friend Zara

And the first thing- as tina’s fans this thought cross your mind “OMG WHO IS THIS GIRL? IS SHE TINA’S NEW GIRLFRIEND?”. “Omg… so it’s true Tina and K have broke up?.”

and then she posted another picture with her

dinner time? or more like double-date? 555

Everyone will think she is Tina's new Girlfriend, and it is - without a doubt- a prove that Tina and K have broke up.

But the big question is "Why did she post these pictures?" She never post a single picture with her and K when they're still together, but now she posted some pictures with this girl in it, that makes everyone thinks that girl is her new girlfriend.. Strange isn’t it?. If i were K , I'd be SOOOOOOOO MAD. But maybe the purpose of posting those picture is that she wants to show the world that she’s okay. She can do anything she wants even after breaking up with someone, she easily can sit down with beautiful girls around her. Some people even said “Tina’s often changing her hair color these days, maybe she wants to try something new, wants to get over her relationship with K.” In other words, she’s telling us that she has move on. Move on from K.

But, Is it what really happening?

For me there are only three things:

First, Tina got tired with K and had someone new so she chose her instead.
Second, it's K decision to end the relationship.
Third, it's all only media-play. They want to trick us.

You know, Tina never posted or did anything obvious when she’s still with K before, that could make everyone thinks she’s in relationship with someone. (Well yeah she did post on her facebook that says “what I am blabalblba”) but it’s after her picture and K spread out on the internet). Then why when they’re no longer together she somehow wants to tell us that “she has move on." and "have something new" ??????



I don’t know what happened with this couple. There is always different side of the story. Believe what you want to believe. I’ll just end it here. Thanks for reading this nonsense opinion of mine.



–xoxo Monika



*coughs* have you seen Tina and aom picture that recently Tina’s upload on her instagram?? And also another post toppeii’s posted on his instagram? If you haven’t. Check ‘em out : )

Tina Jittaleela's new Drama "The Horror Friend"

Hi this is Monika Speaking~
Long time no see fellas!

Now, I'm back with Tina's new drama! it's a horror Drama "The Horror Friend" on channel 5. But She's Only appeared in 2 episodes so far, episode 5 and 13. In episode 13 she acted along with Nann.

Here's the download Link (without sub)
Episode 3 >> link
Episode 15 >> link


In episode 3 it starts when Jeab (Tina) decided to leave her old condominium where she shared the room with 3 roommates to another rent house near a lake. All the terrifying things start to happen when tina move to that house.

Episode 13, Tina and Nann who are close friend, start to live with a man (i guess he's tina's friend or still related with tina's family). The Man seems cold and mysterious. As the time flies Tina and Nann find more and more strange things happen to them. The house is not haunted but the man and his boyfriend's mysterious behavior is make the house feels uncomfortable. 

That's all for today. Bye! And happy new year!
-xoxo monika

Lime Kumpul Siang

Alohaaaaaaaa~

Ehehehe after a looooong time we're finally back! Yeay! We're back! LIME is BACK!! wohooooooooo~!

Finally, i'm in the mood to make this post,  so for you who read this i just wanna say have a nice time wasting your time reading this post!

Setelah lama sekali ibu-ibu kosidahan RT 05/03 kelurahan margasatwa, kampung kebon apel tidak bertemu akhirnya kita bertemu juga aseeeeeekkkkkk... sebenernya sih hari rabu yang lalu ketemu nya tapi baru ada mood buat post nya hari ini, maklum capek ><

Jadi kisah ini diawali saat ibu Rara memBBM saya menanyakan untuk datang kerumah untuk mengambil cucian kotor yang bisa ia bersihkan *eh salah* dia menanyakan untuk main kerumah, dan tanpa pikir pendek lagi saya akhirnya meng iya kan saja dan kalau ada pepatah mengatakan sambil menyelam minum air pepatah itu sangat tepat mewakili cerita ini, karena tak disangka satu orang yang mau dateng yang lain nya ikut-ikutan (bentar deh mon apa nyambung nya sama pepatah barusan?) yha ga ada sih tapi gue suka aja nyelipin pepatah di post gue supaya sastrawan nya terlihat gitu #apaan OKE LANJUT awal nya kita ngobrol-ngobrol biasa ngebahas ini itu, ketawa-ketawa gak jelas ngebully irma dsb. Emang sih yang nama nya ngebully Irma itu hal yang wajib dilakukan saat pertemuan, rasa nya kurang afdol kalo belum ngebully dia, apalagi Ibu Ema yang sangat menyayangi Irma sepenuh jantung, tiap ngeliat muka Irma pasti ada aja kata-kata manis dan indah keluar dari mulut Ibu Ema. Lalu setelah congor capek ngobrol ngalor ngidul akhir nya kita putuskan untuk makan, yak gue mengusulkan kita untuk makan bakso dan hal hasil inilah penampakan yang bisa diambil

w lupa pke alis

wkwkwk

foto diatas adalah satu dari sekian ribu foto yang kita ambil pada jam makan bakso itu. Makan bakso nya cuma 5 menit foto-foto nya 2 jam, dan ditambah Ibu Irma the BLB yang krasak krusuk nyariin seledri di baso nya alhasil kita nungguin dia makan juga. huft sebal.

Tapi pertemuan itu tidak berlangsung lama dikarenakan ibu Ema yang sok sibuk mau pulang duluan alhasil kita teruskan pertemuan itu hanya bertiga saja, tapi tak apa bertiga juga masih bisa eksis kok *senyum malu*

Dan pertemuan kita tanpa Ibu Ema dilanjutkan dengan kegiatan mendandani ibu Irma yang kepengen ngelepas masa 19 tahun ke 20 tahun nya dengan make up'an yah dengan terpaksa gue lakuin *ikhlas kok ikhlas*

 yha mungkin ga keliatan banget karena itu didlm ruangan

ini agak lebih jelas

 canci kan ibu Irma????? CANCIIIIIIIIIII

dan kegiatan kita gak berlanjut sampe situ aja, setelah selesai dandanin ibu Irma kita lanjut dengan gue belajar ngendarain motor *oke bagian ini diskip aja* well sebenernya sih gue bisa cuma belum lancar aja daaaan disela-sela gue keliling komplek, ibu Irma dan Ibu Rara Asyique putu-putu gaje dan gue juga gak mau kalah doooong akhirnya gue join para ibu-ibu itu

yha gitu... dan kegiatan itu diakhiri dengan hujan, gak ngerti kenapa turun hujan pas gue belajar ngendarain motor, padahal sebelumnya terang benderang DAN setelah kita pulang pun hujan nya berenti -_- wallahu'alam deh~ 

ini post emang ga jelas, karena post yang ada di blog gue ini yang jelas itu kalo ngga tentang tina ya tentang film YON selebihnya paling cerita gaje macam ini. 

Intinya gue seneng banget dengan event macam ini dan setiap kali kita ketemu kayak gini, satu hal yang selalu ada didalam hati gue adalah supaya kita bisa begini terus, ga perlu ketemu setiap hari, gak perlu chat setiap hari, dengan inget bahwa kita punya satu sama lain dan masih ke pengen luangin waktu buat ketemu itu udah bikin bahagia. Ditambah, kita udah beda jalan nya masing2 sekarang, gue pengen setiap gue ngerasa sendiri, kesendirian itu bisa reda karena gue inget kalo gue punya kalian! :") sesuatu banget yah kata-kata gue. Yaudah daripada gue nangis lebih baik hentikan saja semua ini, iya hentikan semua ini!!! hentikan!!!  hentikan mass! aku dah ga kuat massss!!

Wassalam

-xoxo Monika

[Review] Yes Or No 2.5

Alohaaa

This is monika speaking!

Akhirnya kesampaian juga buat review film ini muehehe.

Halo tiniiz apa kabar? semoga kalian baik-baik aja ya! Kali ini mau membahas tentang film yang paling kita tunggu-tunggu dari awal tahun , hehe xD. Akhirnya gue punya waktu juga untuk buat postingan macam ini. Oh ya, kebetulan karena gue gak begitu ahli dalam mereview jadi kalau ditengah jalan postingan ini agak ngawur dan gaje maklumin aja ya haha xD okedeh '-')b

Jadi.... kemarin itu ceritanya baru selesai nonton film ini yang pastinya sudah dengan subtitle, dan dari awal film sampai akhir tuh gue gak berenti-berenti nya merhatiin setiap scene dan menilai akting para pemain, (duileh sutradara juga bukan pake nilai orang segala wkwkwk) oke lanjut. Sebelum nonton gue juga udah sering banget liat komentar-komentar para fans dari sosial media maupun youtube . Kalo dari komentar-komentar yang gue temuin gak sedikit orang yang merasa kurang puas, tapiiiii..... gak sedikit pula orang yang muji film ini. Ada yang bilang film nya lambat lah (gue gak tau maksud nya lambat tuh kayak gimana), membosankan lah... dan yang paling banyak adalah komentar tentang bagaimana film ini nggak seseru film-film terdahulu nya karena yang main bukan couple kesayangan mereka  *nyengir kuda*. Tapi semua orang kan bebas berpendapat, sama juga kayak gue ini so dari pada kebanyakan bacot langsung aja deh ya!

Cekidot...

Karakter

     (duh lupa mau ngomong apa) Oh ya, karena sebelum film nya rilis gue udah tau sinopsis nya jadi gue udah bisa bayangin bakalan kayak apa film nya, gue juga ga banyak ber-ekspektasi ngalor ngidul kejauhan, karena kalau ngeliat film sebelum nya tentu fans tau bahwa film besutan ComeOnSweet ini menyuguhkan film yang sederhana dengan tetap menonjolkan maksud dan pesan yang ingin disampaikan kepada para penonton. Jadi waktu nonton film ini gak ada tuh ekspektasi bakalan ada adegan tina buka baju ataupun adegan ranjang sama lawan main nya *ga gitu juga sih ya* makanya untuk plot mungkin gue gabisa cerita banyak nanti #sokoke. Oh ya ini kan lagi mau bahas tentang karakter......... okesip.

Nah! jadi... eh bentar deh, bahas siapa dulu ya... uhm...Tina dulu aja kali ya?. Okedeh... Jadi seperti yang gue udah pernah bahas disini sinopsis yon 2.5 karakter Tina itu calm mature person gitu, yang agak dewasa dan kalem, di sinopsis pun tertulis kalau Wine, karakter yang diperankan Tina ini adalah karakter yang GAMON (Gagal Move On) jadi kebayang dong kayak apa? hihihihi... dan setelah nonton film nya, penilaian gue terhadap Tina itu 7,5 dari 10. Iya, kalo dibilang puas ya belum nyampe hati banget, tapi kalo dibilang kecewa pun yang gak separah itu juga. Entah, rasa nya tina disini kelihatan ogah-ogahan akting nya lalu juga ada kesan diwajahnya yang kelihatan kayak "ini gue harus berusaha kalem coy" jadi sepanjang film itu tina cuma 3/4 kali bisa senyum lebar sisanya kayak begini nih...

ini pas dipaksa makan buah sama Pii

Pokoknya ditekuk mulu muka nya, weitss tapi masalah masih ganteng atau ngga ya bisa liat disini lah *mimisan*

aduh ga kuat nerusin postingan kalau ngeliat foto Tina diatas *masih mimisan*

Oke lanjut! Sekarang Kita ke Nann... well, i must say NANN AKTING MU BAGUS SEKALI MBAK! *eh mbak atau mas ya? wkwkwkw* SERIUSAN!!! KARAKTERNYA DAPET!!! OMG! OMG !OMG.!. Oke, mungkin gue agak lebay tapi jujur dari awal scene sampe akhir dia meranin karakter Pii itu dapet! Nagging nya dapet, nyelow nya dapet unyuk nya dapet lucuk nya dapet kayak gini nih

dan ini scene terbaik di film hahahah!

Asli gue ngakak dan geli sendiri liat nya xD...

Lanjut Ke Hongyok, well kalau untuk yang satu ini gue ga terlalu banyak nilai karena kayak nya karakter Fah ini karakter Hongyok di kehidupan nyata xD yang ceria banget terus supel pokoknya cocok lah sama Nann, dan waktu adegan sedih nya juga lumayan lah...

Dan yang terakihr adalah Pekae yang berperan sebagai Pim, menurut gue untuk debut film pertama ada nilai plus dan minus nya nih... nilai plus nya adalah wajah pekae ini sudah cocok sekali dengan wajah-wajah cewek pendiam yang galau nentuin arah dan tujuan hidupnya, tapi minus nya adalah sama dengan Tina, disini dia peran nya terus-terusan sedih alhasil penonton ngga bisa liat ekspressi lain dari pekae.

she's indeed a cutie!

Dari semua karakter yang berhasil nancep dihati gue adalah Nann!

Plot & Pengambilan Adegan

   Untuk plot nya sendiri, kalau kalian udah baca sinopsis nya, ya gimana ya..... kalian gak akan lagi dapetin surprise dari film ini, karena pas gue tonton gue langsung ngerasa "waduh itu sinopsis kayaknya bukan sinopsis tapi spoiler keseluruhan" karena apa yang udah ditulis semua nya terjadi dan film nya pun ga ngasih kejutan apa-apa. To' apa yang ada disinopsis. Dan untuk pengambilan adegan *eh pengambilan adegan atau gambar ya?* ya terserah lah ya... difilm ini kerasa banget berbedaaaaaaaa dari film sebelumnya bahkan gue sempat menobatkan Kirati Nakintanon adalah sutradara yang berhasil bikin gue ngeh bahwa sebuah film series ini sutradara nya berbeda. Gaya pengambilan gambar di film ini jauh berbeda sama film terdahulunya yang disutradari oleh Sarasawadee Wongsompetch atau yang lebih dikenal dengan P'Nay. Di film ini adegan nya lebih dramatis ketimbang YON 1&2, dan mungkin itu mengapa banyak fans yang bilang film ini lambat karena kalau sebelum nya film YON  ini lebih cepet (maksudnya scene nya ga dramatis banget) seperti film-film romance sewajarnya kalau di YON 2,5 ini setiap scene dibuat lebih jelas dan yak lambat karena di dramatisir itu, tapi itu yang membuat film ini kerasa cepet tapi lambat/?. Maksudnya adalah dalam segi jalan cerita menurut gue film ini terlalu cepet, contoh nya aja kisah Pii sama Fah, cuma mereka ketemu terus si Pii coba nyomblangin Fah sama Wine eh terus Fah malah suka sama Pii udah gitu doang, ya masa tiba-tiba cuma 3 harian kenal sama Pii si Fah udah bisa cinta mati? kan gak etis banget, ga ada tuh yang nama nya masa-masa tumbuh benih-benih cinta, atau perasaan gundah gulana yang gak tau asal nya dari mana. Dan per-scene itu bener-bener di dramatasir banget kayak pas Mereka Ber-empat ketemu di apartement mereka, pas si Pim dateng dan langsung Wine mukanya galau, itu yang bikin pengambilan gambar di film ini sama film-film terdahulunya beda.

    Untuk perbedaan lain nya adalah seperti yang gue bilang diatas, film ini sederhana tapi tetap menonjolkan pesan yang mau disampaikan. Cuma di film ini ada scene yang lebih 'berani' ketimbang film sebelum nya, mereka lebih terbuka dan kesan film Les nya itu lebih berwarna karena bukan cuma menyoroti kisah cinta tapi ada sedikit tentang kehidupan cewek tomboy. Dan itu gue acungin jempol '-')b masalah yang dihadapin oleh ke empat karakter masih sama dengan film yang lain *ya gimana ya nama nya juga film les* tentang nature, culture dan juga jamur *lho* abis apalagi ya yang bisa diangkat dari kisah percintaan seperti ini kalau bukan tentang hal seperti itu.

 Di film ini sutradara berusaha untuk mengangkat kisah cinta mereka ber-empat secara bersamaan yang mana menurut gue itu bikin gak fokus karena bingung ini cerita tentang siapa karena perhatian kita terbagi jadi dua kisah cinta dan yap! betul sekali itu lah tujuan dari film ini, jadi... sepertinya ComeOnSweet berhasil buat film ini! Dan lalu pesan yang ingin disampaikan juga terlaksana dengan baik. Kalau kalian nonton nya pakai otak dan hati pasti ngerti apa pesan yang disampaikan. Ya seenggaknya lo punya pendapat sendiri film ini itu maksudnya apa.

Bagi gue film ini adalah  *aduh tiba-tiba lupa kosakata nya* contoh atau cerita pendek dari everyday struggle pasangan les, dimana mareka masih cinta satu sama lain tapi karena adat istiadat, maupun hal-hal disekeliling mereka yang membuat susah untuk memperjuangkan cinta mereka, dimana film ini menyampaikan bahwa "Cinta itu dari hati, dan gak seharusnya dibedakan oleh gender" semua orang seharusnya bebas memilih mana yang dia suka untuk jadi pendamping nya. Tapi semua itu terkendala oleh alam. Ya true love lah bahasa simple nya #eaaaa

Mungkin segitu aja review tentang film ini! Capek juga ngetik 555555 . Dan ini dia penilaian gue untuk film ini untuk keseluruhan :

 

Yes Or No 2,5 Download Link [ENG SUB]

Holaa!

Sorry for the late update, i've been busy doing some stuffs, and had no time to update the download link. But... Finally i can make it! thanks for the uploader (youtube user: xxx idgexxx). This is what we've been looking for! 5555

And this is for you who asking for the engsub!

Enjoy!

Part 1
Part 2


-xoxo monika

Nineteen

Aloha!

this is monika speaking!

(idk how to start, but . . .)

As a normal human being, i also celebrate my annual birthday (it's not that, i celebrate it with cake and candles and some balloons) only some "happy birthday" from my family and friends, then feeling a lil bit grateful after that. I'm actually not that kind of person who loves celebrate my birthday by make a party for myself, family and friends. My mom asked me if i want to buy a birthday cake to celebrate it, and i said no, because i have always been like this... i will only celebrate it when i want to, and usually i'll make a plan from january HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA yes.

If i feel like i shouldn't celebrate it, then i won't.

So...what i want to write here is.... adalah segala ke gundahan hati ini #ceileh.... but first i'm gonna write about something that hit me, the day before my b'day. That night my parents were having a 'war' and my mom cried, and i always hate her for doing that. I mean she's always being childish, drag me in into her problem with my dad, i know they are my parents but it isn't something that i should know because sometimes they're arguing over something unimportant and childish. But then something hit me hard, then i start to wake up.... some thoughts cross my mind. And one of them is... the thought "my mom needs a friend" and then i start to think, about how she deals with her everyday problem, how she argues over something useless, and how she overreacts when my dad come home late. She is need a friend, she needs someone who understands her, she wants someone on her side that won't tell that she's wrong or blame her. Technically i failed as a daughter. I only think about myself, i only think that i'm the only person who got many problems, i only think that i'm the saddest person in house, then i don't want someone drag me in into their problem because i think i already have so much burdens on my shoulders. At the end it led me being a selfish bitch. Ungrateful prick.

I didn't imagine i'm an adult now. And being an adult means:

You realized that...

your mother is not as strong as you think

your father needs you to help him out of his own problems

your parents are weak



Yes, they are weak, and you... you need to help them. I mean, i always think my parents are a great couple, a great person, like... they know how to handle their own problems, they know how to deal with life more than i do. But as i grew up i realized that they are not that 'great'. We as their children need to stop thinking that "my parents don't need my help, they know how to deal with their own problems more than i do". BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT. They need help too... but they never ask. And i think it's kinda sad knowing that there are people who need help but they never ask for it, and that people is our parents.

I just realized this.... all of this.
I've always thought, why should i help them? i'm their child, that's their problem, that's not my place, they are my parents they'll know how to handle it.

But now i know that my parents' problems are my problems too...

Being a 19-year-old girl.

Well, i think this is what they say about "Growing up" both physically and mentally. Physically, i've changed since 5 or 6 years ago HAHAHAHA yeah but still, this chubby cheeks and fat-belly won't go from my body and face. Lol. What else? uhm.. oh yea I'm taller than when i was in 7th grade of junior high school, i was 150 and now i'm 158. Yes 8 cm taller in 5 years , i'm so happy.

After graduated from high school and start working, i start to apply some makeup (i mean bb cream, eyeshadow and blush on kkkkk~), I can draw my own eyebrows!!! i get some compliments from my friends about it HAHAHAHAHA. What else huh? uhm... i'm still left-handed but somewhat my right hand is stronger than my left hand idk why.

the left one taken in january 2015,
and the right one idk but i think, it was taken in 2009

Aaaand this is me now

i only put bb cream muehehehe (taken in last monday)

yeah, i've changed.


OH YAAA GW FORGOT TO TELL YOU THAT GW SEKARANG JADI COLLEGE GIRL!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.


Yes yes i'm a college girl now! I study at Univ. Bhayangkara Jakarta Raya, faculty of Psychology. Started since september 7th , yeah been 2 two weeks puahahaha... so far...so good. And.... as a college girl i have my own essentials, here they are...

this is tiny notes i use to write something really important

This is my notebook

 People usually use binder for school like this as their notebook

 (sebenernya gue juga pengen beli yang kaya gitu, tapi apa daya...... gue jijik sama bolong nya itu)

I don't know if i have tyrophobia or what-ever-ppl-called-it, but the thing is that holes are disgusting and got me goosebumps whenever i look at it. So i choose main aman aja , besides the notebook i bought is indeed a cutie pie, muehehehe it's colorfullsssss, and it's imported from korea! Yas!

 i don't have much to say about my college life, but i'm thinking to write more in the future.

Can we skip this college girl thingy?? and move on?

OKAY! That was about how i physically changed and start being a college girl . Now shall we start to how i mentally changed?

i think...... *drum rolls* i've changed sooooooooooooo much,,, WAIT i think it's supposed to be "growing up" not "changed", yes it is...  i've grown up from daddy's lil girl to daddy's big girl.

At this age, i feel some significant changes inside me, some good and some bad. I often found or realize the new (real) meaning of every things i was looking for. From the simplest thing 'till the hard one. Yet i'm still learning imnida~ now i'm able to control my words... my anger (except to my brother, cus i hate him. okno) jadi lebih sering mengamati ketimbang berpartisipasi. Tapi yang lucunya adalah gue tetep jadi orang yang easy going (bentar ini kenapa campur bahasa gini nulisnya ??). Well, in my previous post i wrote about how i became anti-social, and not as easy going as i used to. But then i realized that i AM still an easy going person, it's just i hate people around me at that time, so i chose to being quite and i pulled my self out of circle, but being an "easy going" person is not define in one situation only, an easy going person is define by how she/he reacts to new people and how she/he interacts with them in every single occasion. I find there are people who hard to reach, like they keep their own circle for themselves so we as an easy going person think it's frustrating. We need to try  hard to get their attention, and we feel like we're worthless, but actually that's how some people live their life. That's happen to me... i always frustrated when people did not notice my presence, i always want to reach and talk with new people i met. I want to get closer with them and want them to notice my presence. I'm not affraid to open my mouth first to start a conversation. That's the simple definition of an easy going person.


(capek ngetik...)


Intinya.... i'm happy and grateful for whatever happened to me and what i've been through . All the pain are worth it. Every struggle make me strong and wise. I'm happy that i don't have a "beautiful" life instead i have a valuable life, i'm happy for that! . I'm grateful because Allah gave me my parents, an imperfect kind of creature who always fight and argue over each other, drag me in into their problem. My mom who always told me that i'm not pretty, i look old, and whatsoever. My dad who did not able to buy me a laptop, the newest shoes, bags and clothes. They are perfect in their own imperfection. They give me so much life lessons, they show me how to be strong when life gone wrong. I also need to focus to my future since now i have college life, and i'm working too. Studying while working and working while studying. And i must reach my goals.



The last... I'm officially declare that i'm in! ! ! I'm an adult now so i'll start to act like one.




-xoxo Monika

Tina Jittaleela - Gentle Sun Lyrics

Hello!

This is monika speaking!

Some of you might already know and watch the MV , so here is  the lyrics! Enjoy!

Feng lai de fang xiang , yi liu de di fang
You ni wen nuan ce wo, xiang tai yang de kua
Hui..i ha xiang cue ru, shen hai de ye liay
Wo yi bu yi bu cuong xiang man cing de sia sia

Den da yang kua, suan ku wo de zuang
Zhai men ho kao ching ni chen ba

Reff :

Ni zai wo shin shang, shang wan rou de tai yang
Oh ai shu lua mi wan ye nia, bian de ken chien chay,
Wo yan fan liu la, chen wen rou de tai yang
Bian liang wo biau bua de fang shang


Feng lai de fang xiang, yi liu de di fang
You ni wen nuan ce wo, xiang tai yang de kua
Hui..i ha xiang cue ru, shen hai de ye lia
Wo yi bu yi bu cuong shang man cing de sia sia
Den da yang kua ,suan ku wo de zuang
yan shi wan cao lian che chian fang

Back to Reff

In wen you ni zai hai bai zen me buo zha
Ni she wo shia shing de shin yang

Back to Reff (2X)

MV Story Line >> here

thanks for this site

-xoxo monika

Yes Or No 2.5 [Download Link]

[UPDATE!!!!]


Halooooooo !!! Long time no see kkkkk~




This is Monika speaking~


I know it's been awhile i did not update my blog, i'm sorry fellas :(

But now i comeback with the download link of YON 2.5 yeay~~

Maybe some of you already know and watched this movie, but for you who hasn't watch it yet
Here... i give you the download Link for Yes Or No 2.5 but still, without Eng sub.
But soon as i get the full movie with sub i'll make sure to update here...

And thanks for those who post the download link on my comment section. Thank you so much guys for the info i couldn't thank you enough :D


The download link has been deleted. You can go to my another post for english subtitle!

ENGSUB >> YES OR NO 2.5 ENG SUB


-xoxo monika

Hello Guys!

Let me tell you something

Hi!
This is Monika speaking!

Due to my personal problem and also my daily schedule. Here i'm telling you that i'm going to take hiatus, so i'm not going to update my blog for a while . I'm sorry guys, whoever read this :) thanks for visiting my blog. I'll do update when i have time.

xoxo monika

Jadi Dewasa itu ngga Enak! Part 3

Haaaaaaai blooooggggg



Udah cukup lama ya ga ngepost.

Lagi mengalami masa-masa sulit nih…. Hiks

Iya kayanya emang gue yang tukang ngeluh

Gue yang gak sadar diri

Gue yang baru sadar apa itu kenyataan

Dan gue yang baru sadar bahwa dunia yang besar dan kotor ini tempatnya para pemberani, pejuang dan penjilat.

Sedangkan gue? seorang manusia yang cuma punya hati kecil, lusuh dan rapuh.

Walaupun begitu gue masih terus berusaha bertahan di dunia yang besar dan kotor ini. Dalam tanda kutip.

I’m struggling with my self lately dari awal bulan Mei sampe sekarang hati gak bisa terkontrol terus-terusan, turun turun dan turun dan bahkan ketakutan ini menggerogoti harapan hidup gue. Sial! what a coward.

Iya semakin lama dengan keadaan kaya gini ngebuat gue ga pengen ngapa-ngapain lagi selain… mati.

Gue ga kuat kalo hidup kaya gini terus, kerja kaya gini terus. Sial! kenapa apa yang gue mau gak pernah terjadi apa gue harus benci sama hal yang gue suka baru gue bisa dapetin itu semua? Gue jadi lemah dari hari ke hari sampe gue pikir gue kena bipolar karena tetiba gue down sampe bener-bener mau mati tapi nanti selang beberapa lama gue membaik lagi, ini otak GAAAAAK pernah bisa diem buat sekali aja jangan terlalu banyak berpikir. Tapi gue sadar, gue bukan kena bipolar atau penyakit mental lain nya (mungkin) gue cuma lagi ngalamin stress iya stress. Lulus dari SMK adalah akhir dari kehidupan nikmat gue ya walaupun gak betul-betul nikmat. Ah udahlah ya gak usah bahas masa lalu.

Yang jelas gue cuma bisa berharap hati gue dikuatin, pikiran gue diteguhin (bukan teguh bapaknya Rara) maksudnya gue berdoa supaya gue dijadiin orang yang bijak. Semoga .

Tapi dari masa sulit itu gue banyak belajar dan menemukan diri gue yang sebenarnya sedikit demi sedikit. It’s like a magic you think you know yourself but in fact all you do is pretending, pretending that you know yourself you just kinda let yourself flow with every situations, you just ‘live’ your life but without realizing without thinking without comparing and at the end of the day you never learn.

Eh? Atau itu cuma gue yah? cuma gue yang….yang selama ini gak pernah menyadari, berpikir dan menyamakan?

Gak pernah menyadari kenyataan

Gak pernah berpikir akan segala hal yang ada disekitar kita

Dan gak pernah mencoba menyamakan diri kita dengan orang lain?

Alhasil sampe akhirnya gue gak pernah belajar ?

ATAU mungkin karena selama ini disekolah semua manusia yang gue temuin masih polos sama seperti gue dan mereka pun masih belajar sehingga gue pun juga gak bisa melakukan itu semua? Atau mungkin juga karena selama ini gue itu jadi robot?

Tidur > Makan> Nonton Tv> Ke sekolah > Belajar > Kerjain PR> Kerjain segala macem Ujian sekolah> berteman sama orang yang gue temuin disekolah,

sampe pada akhirnya gue ulangin hal itu terus-menerus selama 12 tahun ini?

Ah iya betul juga, selama ini gue jadi Robot, Robot yang dinamakan Anak sekolah. Karena selama ini gue jadi Robot jadi gue gak pernah tahu jadi manusia yang sebenarnya tuh kaya apa. Ini yang paling gue sesali kenapa disekolah, kenapa di SMK kita gak pernah diajarin tentang cara mengatasi masa dewasa? Cara bersepakat dengan masalah yang akan dihadapi saat dewasa, kayak masalah

1. “BAHWA UANG ADALAH SEGALAGALAGALAGALANYA ” di Sekolah masalah kayak gitu Cuma terjadi pada saat bayar SPP, beli buku, sama jajan (baju sekolah dan ATK sih bisa irit dan gak jadi masalah) dan which is…. ditanggung sama Ortu. Selama ini disekolah kita disuruh “JANGAN PIKIRIN HAL KAYAK GITU YANG PENTING KALIAN BELAJAR YANG BENAR” daaaaan pada saat kerja gue kaget…. Bahwa senista inilah hidup gue hanya karena uang. Karena uang gue harus terima segala macam hal nya yang gue males buat bicarain.



Lalu masalah



2. “KALIAN GAK PUNYA TEMAN APALAGI SAHABAT” di sekolah kita selalu ketemu orang yang akhirnya kita panggil teman, disuruh kerja kelompok disuruh segala-galanya sampe kita kecanduan, kecanduan akan ‘teman’ kalo sekolah gak punya teman tuh rasanya gak enak. PADAHAL KENYATAAN NYA dimasa dewasa semua serba sendiri yang tersisa cuma orang tua manusia yang kita panggil teman itu pergi melanglang buana entah kemana cuma beberapa dari mereka yang masih ingat dengan kita tapi tetap dimasa dewasa kita dipaksa menghilangkan kecanduan kita terhadap ‘teman’.



Dan juga masalah



3. “CITA-CITA ITU DIDAPAT OLEH ORANG YANG PANTAS, JADI GAK SEMUA DARI KITA BISA GAPAI CITA-CITA” sekolah adalah suatu jembatan yang katanya untuk menggapi cita-cita kita, tapi disekolah gak ada satu guru pun yang bilang sama kita bahwa gak semua orang bisa gapai cita-cita. Bahasa jelasnya adalah kayak gini…

“kalo kita punya cita-cita dengan sekolah aja gak cukup nak, kamu harus jadi orang yang pemberani, pemberani kayak apa? Kamu gak perlu susah payah disekolah contek sana contek sini supaya nilaimu bagus. Kamu gak perlu susah payah cari muka supaya dipandang orang. Kamu gak perlu repot-repot mikirin angka yang saya tulis di atas kertas ujian mu. Karena dimasa dewasa hal-hal itu gak penting. Cita-cita didapet bukan kayak cara kita dapet nilai dari guru jadi gak perlu ngumpulin tugas cepet-cepetan, yang penting kamu ngerti pelajaran saya. Kamu gak perlu maju kedepan kelas jawab pertanyaan saya, kamu ga perlu angkat tangan kamu untuk jawab pertanyaan saya cuma karena ingin dapat nilai dan dipandang orang kalau kamu hebat oleh orang lain, karena yang saya mau kamu ngerti dengan pemahaman kamu sendiri. Yang saya mau kamu maju kedepan karena kamu rela melakukan itu semua demi “Keseruan” saat belajar kamu sendiri. Kalau kamu pikir masalah Log, Gaya, dan juga Zat zat itu gak penting buat kamu , ya gak masalah karena tugas saya mengajarkan siapa tahu dengan saya mengajarkan mu tentang ini kamu jadi tertarik. Jadi apa yang saya ajarkan tidak harus kamu hapal tapi kalau kamu suka kamu bisa belajar memahami tapi kalau menurut kamu itu gak penting ga ada masalah untuk melupakan bahkan tidak mempelajarinya, dan yang dimaksud pemberani adalah kamu melakukan segala hal karena keinginan diri kamu sendiri tanpa paksaan dan begitu kamu akan menghadapi masalah kamu siap menghadapinya dengan caramu sendiri, belajar memahami dengan pemahaman kamu sendiri memutuskan suatu hal karena kebijakan kamu sendiri”

Disekolah semuanya bertentangan dengan apa yang gue tulis diatas. Disekolah tujuan kita cuma NILAI dari hal itu kita bisa dinobatkan sebagai yang terbaik tapi sayangnya dari that GODDAMN NILAI, semua unsur-unsur belajar jadi hilang. Semuanya cari cara buat ngejar hal itu. Dari cara yang baik sampai yang kotor sekalipun. Gue sedih.

 Dan dari curhatan gue diatas gue akhirnya menemukan diri gue, bahwa gue:

1. Memprioritaskan kenyamanan hidup tanpa Uang

2. Menyukai hal yang bersih (Gak suka muka dua, penjilat, pembohong)

3. Bukan tipe orang yang suka cari muka

4. Gue tipe pemberontak

5. Pengeluh(?)

Gue gak tau apa itu semua tipe/sifat sejati manusia atau bukan tapi yang jelas hal itu yang gue dapet dari pembelajaran kali ini. Dan semuanya berkaitan.

Point pertama. Gue gatau kenapa paling benci sama “perbudakan dan buruh” pengalaman gue kerja sebagai buruh di PT adalah awal gue menyadari diri gue. Lebih baik gue mati daripada harus kerja kayak gitu. Segala macem kerja yang terlalu memaksa kita menjadi budak , budak disini adalah kita kerja untuk orang lain dan dipaksa menomor satukan pekerjaan kita itu. GUE BEEEEENCIIIIIIIII sama hal itu. Gue ga suka ketika hak kita untuk “mengerjakan tugas kita sebaik mungkin” menjadi “lo gak punya pilihan selain ngerjain tugas ini” dua hal itu berbeda, sangat berbeda. Dan dari situ gue ngerasa gue gak cocok kerja sama orang lain which means gue harus buka usaha sendiri. Point pertama gue dapet dari point kedua ini, gue menemukan banyak orang yang kotor dan gue bisa yakinin I’m not one of them. Satu hari gue denger rekan kerja gue bicara bohong (untuk menguntungkan dirinya sendiri) sama orang lain gue inget betul gue sampe bilang dalam hati “ya tuhan jangan sampe gue berbohong sama orang lain cuma untuk terbebas dari masalah ataupun menguntungkan diri gue, jadikanlah hati dan pikiran gue kuat dan berani.” Dan gue terapkan hal itu yang mana kadang gak berjalan mulus, Iya orang dewasa lebih suka denger cerita bohong daripada kejujuran. GW KASIH SPOILER TUH.

Iya gue tahu kebohongan itu umum dan luas dan yang gue maksud adalah kebohongan orang dewasa. Bukan kebohongan yang biasa anak kecil maupun anak sekolah lakuin pada umumnya. Orang dewasa lebih suka sama penjilat karena mereka pikir mereka punya teman. Dan orang macem gue? Ya beginilah hasilnya. Kadang gue dianggap bego, polos. Padahal mereka yang kotor. Lalu point yang ketiga ini masih gue takutin dan juga gue raguin. Takut nya adalah gue takut bertemu sama orang seperti ini dan ragu nya adalah apa gue bisa menghindar dari sifat ini dimasa yang akan datang. Kalo Point ke empat ini… ah sudahlah…. Karena gue gak suka penjilat dan muka dua yang mana tipe-tipe kebanyakan orang dewasa ya gw terlihat seperti pemberontak, mungkin kaya egois sih ya… ngek. DAN untuk yang terakhir mungkin bisa dilihat dari postingan ini… orang mana yang ngeluh di blog nya sendiri kalo bukan seorang pengeluh? Ya kan? 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

-xoxo monika

Tina Jittaleela - Love Again Lyrics (Romanized+English+Bahasa)

Haaiiii^^

This is Monika Speaking

Have you watched the new MV 'Love Again' ? it's one of Yes Or No 2,5 OST sung by Tina.

Go check the MV >>

And here's the lyrics

kon koie pìt wăng · mâi glâa jà wăng a-rai   kon koie chôhk ráai · mâi kít wâa jà chôhk dee  kon mee bàat plăe · mâi hăai mi leum seuk tee   keu chăn keun née · wan têe yang mâi póp ter **kòp kun seuk kon têe káo kong yòo bon fáa   kòp kun chôhk chá-dtaa têe chăn dâai jer ter  ter tam hâi chăn hŭe rór · ter tam hâi chăn róng hâi   hŭa jai duang derm man rêrm-dtôn mài láe róo sèuk dâai èek kráng   ter tam hâi chăn lŏng rák · mâi mong glàp bpai kâang lăng   prór ter kon dieow bplìan bplaeng túk yàang   chăn rák krai dâai èek kráng prór ter Back to ** English Translation Someone who has faced disappointment wouldn’t dare hoping for anything Someone who has faced misfortune wouldn’t wish for luck Someone who was wounded still hasn’t forgotten That someone was me, on the day I haven’t found you I thank someone who’s up above in the sky I thank fate for bringing us together You make me laugh You make me cry You rekindle this heart And I’m able to feel again You make me fall in love And I look no more behind me Because you alone changed everything I’m able to love again because of you Terjemahan Bahasa Indonesia Seseorang yang pernah mengalami kekecewaan tidak akan berani berharap untuk apapun lagi. Seseorang yang pernah mengalami kemalangan tidak akan berani meminta keberuntungan Seseorang yang terluka masih tidak bisa terlupakan Dan seseorang itu adalah aku, hari dimana aku belum menemukanmu Aku berterimakasih kepada seseorang diatas langit sana Aku berterimakasih kepada takdir karena telah mempertemukan kita bersama Kamu membuat aku tertawa Kamu membuat aku menangis Kamu menghidupkan kembali hati ini Dan aku bisa merasakan lagi Kamu membuat aku jatuh cinta Dan aku tidak lagi melihat kemasa lalu Karena kamu sendirilah yang telah merubah segalanya Aku dapat mencintai lagi karenamu Download here >> Tina Jittaleela - Love again MP3 -xoxo Monika

Yes Or No 2.5 Trailer is Out !

Hiii!

This is Monika Speaking!

Finally ComeOnSweet released the Trailer of Yes Or No 2.5 ! Wohooooooooo !!!!

In the opening of video we can see the romantic friendship between Tina and Nan. They're soooooo kyoooteeeeee!

 I think their friendship is more than a common friendship between women but they both also romantic to each other especially Nan , Just like what i said in my post here . Nan role is a lively and bright girl. So their character match to each other, Tina or we can say Wine is a calm girl and Nan is a cheerful one.

They're so damn cute

And here are the preview of the main characters

The Mature Wine

The Brightful Pii

The Perplexed Pim

 

The Innocent Fah

This scene came out in the last minute of video but we know this scene is the beginning of the story

That guy is Jet he is Pim' Boyfriend

So far this is my favorite scene, when Pekae or..... we can say Pim say some words to Wine that makes their both hearts crying, she says "in the end nature creates women with men. It's unchangeable." Pekae has done a good job !

And here are some snapshots of the togetherness between Wine and Pim, Pii and Fah.

This was Pim Reaction to the answer that Wine said to her

Pim : "Do you like looking at the stars?"
Wine : "No..... I just like sitting beside you."

These scenes will lead to another heart-warming kiss ! I guarantee it!

And here is the video! Enjoy :)

-xoxo monika

Tina Jittaleela Family

Hi !!!!!
this is Monika speaking!

Okay! So.... this post is something that i really want to make since a loooong time ago but i didn't have enough sources back then, and now well you can say i have enough sources and facts to write and make it into a post, i'll make sure you'll get another information by reading this post.



So.. for all of you who loves Tina Jittaleela so much! Let's check this out....









There're many Tina's fans who still don't know much about Tina (please, i don't put myself as a number 1 fan of Tina, because OF COURSE i'm not!) i just want to share. Because sharing is caring 55555. Not so long ago someone from a group of Tina Jittaleela fans said to me that Tina has a younger sister/brother and she believed that when i convinced her about Tina being the last child of family, and what a surprise there's not only her but more than 10 person in that group believed it. So here goes some clarification that i made to make everything clear..





First! Tina is the last child of family. She's the youngest. Yes! She doesn't have any lil sister or brother.

EXO Web Drama (EXO Next Door)

안녕 !




[UPDATE]


This is monika speaking!

I guess you already know about this, am i right? Our EXO  have a Web drama called "EXO Next Door" (우리 옆집에 엑소가 산다). Since it's a Web drama so the length of every episode it's different from the common drama which's 1 hour+ duration. It has 12-15 minutes of every episode. The drama produced by LINE Corp. First aired on 9th April. Yes! There's a female lead character and it's Moon Ga Young.

No! No ! No! Don't be sad! in my opinion this web drama is telling us about the story of What if an EXO-L meet EXO and how she reacts to this situation, In short this drama is about us, exo-l. Moreover, when i found out the female lead character is Moon Gayoung. Look at her! in my opinion she is the face of the average looking girl, not too plastic neither ugly duck she's perfect for the role!

The drama is about the exo members who moved to another place (Chanyeol childhood house) and meet a girl named Ji Yeonhee, since it's only the 1 & 2 episode that already out i can only conclude the main of the main actor is Chanyeol and what a big disappointment Jongin seems will not take a big part in this drama (i was hoping that Jongin can have a long scene and the story too). But it's just my opinion, who knows? there will be another suprise in the next episode right?.

The Official EXO Next Door Youtube Channel is already uploaded the drama but unfortunately it's not available for some countries. So here are the link for those who can't watch it!

Enjoy!

Episode 1 >> Eng Sub Episode1

Episode 2 >> Eng Sub Episode2
Episode 3 >> Eng Sub Episode3 
Episode 4 >> Eng Sub Episode4
Episode 5 >> Eng Sub Episode5
Episode 6 >> Eng Sub Episode6
Episode 7 >> Eng Sub Episode7
Episode 8 >> Eng Sub Episode8

And finally in the 8th episode uri Kai joins the group! uwaaaaaaaa *-*









-xcxo monika