Catatan Ketiga

One, two, three, four five, the bell is ringing.

i have to survive in this kind of feeling

Hi………

This is monika speaking.





Tiring day, tiring week.



This 3rd week was the first time doing my overnight shift job and i had to stayed up all night. As i write this post i'm still a bit sleepy because for past few days(it's about 2/3 days) i've been slept for only 4 hours in a day. But don't be worry i'm okay over here heheh. You must be wondering what's this week story will be, am i right? well not very special because I keep thinking about quitting my job….. i feel like i'm suck.. and it's really painful for me to do this job over and over. So... this week story is still the same as the previous one, where i'm still in the adapting-zone but now more intense and closer ,sometimes i'm thinking about the changes in myself i don't know why but it's getting harder for me to get close to other people, i was a really easy going person and it's easier for me to get to know people but now seems like i'm not that easy-going person as i used to.It's just too awkward to start a conversation , i remember one of my coworker told me "come on get rub shoulders with the others, don't keep waiting someone to ask you to come, because you can join us whenever you feel bored". But still, i don't know how to join them, i mean it's not that easy they are older than me we don't have any similarity so what should i say to them? what is your favorite singer? what's you favorite artist? what kind of music do you listening? do you like K-pop? Hell no. So, to keep a distance from them i tried to focus only on my job there's nothing else.

In this week time goes faster than usual i have no idea about what's happened but in overnight shift time goes really fast, i swear (it's a good thing to be thankful. Since i don't like this job) hahaha. I worked from 11 p.m. to 7 a.m with one hour break, my more-like-leader always asked if i want to go to the toilet or not but i always refused and said i don't want to go to the toilet because i don't want to take a pee nor poop, and they were really confused because how can i hold to not pee for almost 8 hours long, hahaha.

As i said before, i'm gettnig close to every people around me, it was very nice because from that i got this one lesson:

Do not easily believe with what we see in person, because what we see outside is not always the same inside.

Yes! that's right what the wise people always said the only person you should believe is yourself, no one else.


(oh my gawdd suddenly my eyes feels soooo heavy i'm so sleeeeeepppppyyyy and i have to end this post right now)

Well , last but not least, i can only hope the best for me and my job, all i need now is strength and support.


Oh yea the opening of Yes or no 2.5has been released i really want to make a post about it but i don't have time, i hope i can make one. Aaaand the last news of EXO is now about Luhan that choose to out from EXO hmmm............... not a good news but hope the best for them.

I'll end this post here :) jalja



-xoxo monika

Catatan kedua (Second Note- Adaptation)

This is monika speaking.

Haaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiii apa kabar? I hope you all had a great time. Amin

So, I’ve been doing this job for 2 weeks long. The progress is... so far so good, alhamdulillah, although there's always different story in every each day, and FYI it always made my heart stops everytime i go to my workplace (because i always worried about what would happen to me) but that's okay. So…… in this second weeks was the time for me adapted to the people around and the result is..... i, myself can finally open my heart for people around me *ceileh*. But sometimes my laziness still haven't properly adapted to this kind of new world, masih suka angot-angotan heuuuuuuhhh...... ya gitu it's like I’m not all-ready for this kind of stuff. But from here step by step i learn to be a good adult because in my opinion im just too childish for people at my age which's nice.

Just like what I’ve said in the previous post the people i met in my workplace are different from my friends but this is life, they are of course maturer yups, because 'the age factor' haha. Nevermind. Disetiap hal juga selalu ada dua sisi berbeda dari diri gue yang makin lama keliatan yaitu "the optimist and the pessimist" ya! when things hit me they are always in my mind fighting over each other and sometimes i almost dying inside for being crazy but they are the big affect for myself to choose every options and opportunities that life has given me. Which is nive HAHAHA

Oh yea today is Eid al Adha ! Selamat idul adha untuk para sapi dan kambing diluar sana :).
You must be wondering why i'm start posting every once a week and posting this kind of things, right? the reason is...... for this 3 months (mungkin) i only have one day free, from all of my work which is in every sunday so , that's why kemungkinan, the possibility every sunday i will come to here and tell my story well it's not that interesting story but the valuable one! so that (i hope) after 3 months i can reread all of my story here and take a look back of what i've done for this short time hahahaha brilliant rite?ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

So this time story is just like the quote above, it's all about the progress and i'm kinda agree with that, all we need to face the progress is adaptation, we need to adapt to everything around us and how we do that? by daring. Yes that's it. Sometimes is so hard for me to accept the things because, me everytime:

"this is not working ! this is not gonna be working."

But when i start to dare my self then there you go. We just need daring ourselves if we want to get out of all these shits. I know talk is easy but when it comes to the reality... well we can say it's quite complicated but if we believe and think about the good things that will come to us if we brave enough to handle all the struggle, trust me dengan sendirinya you adapted to it. Ya saya tau, i too still learning but at least i've ever felt and faced it. And it works. Pokoknya all the tears that fall down not wasted deh, because from that tears you learned to survive, there's always a good thing that waits for you, always.

xoxo -monika

[Lyrics] Demi Lovato - Really Don't care (Indonesian Translate)

I really love this song! Enjoy it :)

You wanna play, you wanna stay, you wanna have it all

You started messing with my head until I hit a wall

Maybe I shoulda known, maybe I shoulda known

That you would walk, you would walk out the door

Hey!

Said we were done, you met someone and rubbed it in my face

Cut to the punch, she broke your heart, and then she ran away

I guess you shoulda known, I guess you shoulda known

That I would talk, I would talk

[Chorus]

But even if the stars and moon collide

I never want you back into my life

You can take your words and all your lies

Oh oh oh I really don't care

Catatan pertama (First note)

 'Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one'

— Bruce Lee

I'm Back.

I know you miss me hehe:D

Talking about the quote above, i just realized that bruce lee was right, never pray for an easy life because life will never be easy, when you think your life's going easy there are two things. First. You will never get a lesson. Second. Because you have no lesson you'll never learn. Learning is the important thing for human kind to keep alive in this reality, just like how could einstein found that theory of relativity if he didn't learn how to solve it? why we should go to school and have education? because our parents want us to learn something in school that will make us become a better person in the future. How could we walk if we never try to learn how to walk?

Hello! This Monika speaking. The previous one is not me. The person who typed the paragraph above is not me xD

I'm so happy and feel relieved right now because tonight and tomorrow i'm freeee ! No more  back-breaking-job! because tomorrow i'm gonna stay at home and enjoy the moment. YEEAAAAAHHHHHH

So talking about what i have done in the past few days, there are millions tons of words i could tell you but i don't know if i can do it or not, so the only thought that came cross my mind every single time now is "reality is fucking cruel, reality is fucking cruel, reality is fucking cruel, reality is fucking cruel, reality is fucking cruel. " that words keep coming on my mind T_T okay i'm not gonna cry, but you know, this little girl need shoulder to lay this pity head on, and take a break! in my workplace i met new people who are different from what i've met in school. No! they're not being mean to me or i get scolded by them but, their gaze towards me makes feel uneasy every single time and moreover they really love mocking behind me, underestimate me and think some stupid shits about me, sometimes i wanna cry and tell them that i'm just like other people, i can do what other people do, but i can't . Everything turns out, become different from the old one, in the workplace there's no people who kinder than your school friends, and there's no people who more care than your bestfriend, all of them are careless, they don't give a fuck about you BUT if we talk about that talent "mocking behind someone' back" they are the winners. When they give their humiliating gaze towards me, there are only 2 options i have. One. I try to not give a shit and. Two. I  try to accept it. But sometimes i choose both of them, first  trying/pretending to not give a single fuck and then accept all those gazes and think that "i'm just popular and they really wanna know me". That's it, and in the end there are so many things i learned from that, for example

do not ever underestimate and humiliate someone by their weakness because, One. There's no people who worth to be humiliated and underestimated, Two. If we do it to a person we are more pathetic than that person.

And for me seeing someone do something harsh or bad to me is the sign for myself to never do that to other people because i know how the feel as being humiliated.

When you've been treated unfairly by someone:

Bad people will take a revenge by treating someone bad and do something harsh to other people.

Good people will take a lesson by never treat someone that way because they know how that feel.

Ed Sheeran - A team [Indonesian Translate]

Hello! this is monika speaking.

I've been listening some Ed Sheeran' songs lately, aaaand i love it! His voice is like breeze in the morning come to fill the lonely soul and warm those every cold and brittle heart out there~ So, here are the lyric aaand Indonesian translate. Hope you Enjoy it!


White lips, pale face
Breathing in snowflakes
Burnt lungs, sour taste
Light's gone, day's end
Struggling to pay rent
Long nights, strange men

And they say
She's in the Class A Team
Stuck in her daydream
Been this way since eighteen
But lately her face seems
Slowly sinking, wasting
Crumbling like pastries
And they scream
The worst things in life come free to us
'Cause we're just under the upper hand
And go mad for a couple grams
And she don't want to go outside tonight
And in a pipe she flies to the Motherland
Or sells love to another man
It's too cold outside
For angels to fly
Angels to fly

Ripped gloves, raincoat
Tried to swim and stay afloat
Dry house, wet clothes
Loose change, bank notes
Weary-eyed, dry throat
Call girl, no phone

And they say
She's in the Class A Team
Stuck in her daydream
Been this way since eighteen
But lately her face seems
Slowly sinking, wasting
Crumbling like pastries
And they scream
The worst things in life come free to us
'Cause we're just under the upper hand
And go mad for a couple grams
And she don't want to go outside tonight
And in a pipe she flies to the Motherland
Or sells love to another man
It's too cold outside
For angels to fly
An angel will die
Covered in white
Closed eye
And hoping for a better life
This time, we'll fade out tonight
Straight down the line

And they say
She's in the Class A Team
Stuck in her daydream
Been this way since eighteen
But lately her face seems
Slowly sinking, wasting
Crumbling like pastries
They scream
The worst things in life come free to us
And we're all under the upper hand
Go mad for a couple grams
And we don't want to go outside tonight
And in a pipe we fly to the Motherland
Or sell love to another man
It's too cold outside
For angels to fly
Angels to fly
To fly, fly
For angels to fly, to fly, to fly
For angels to die



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