Jangan dibaca! Tulisan Absurd

I can’t sleep because I have so many thoughts on my mind. I’m under pressure right now life’s getting hard. . My father’s sick for almost 3 days actually almost a month but the last three days his condition getting worse . And so today I’m officially graduate from high school and I’m also quite satisfied of my score hehe Allhamdulillah Ya Alloh , but I’m still on my periode so I can’t Sholat :( so i can't show to Alloh how grateful I am today /crying a river/. But in the other hand I feel so sad cause of my fathers’ condition. He didn’t go to work for a week I don’t know how tell this (well I shouldn’t tell this on here heheheheh) well the point is tonight I can’t sleep for some reasons so I’m gonna write something absurd now xD

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Let’s talk about my mom. I don’t know but day by day i adore her in unique way. You know sometimes she can be an evil, but sometimes she can be like an angel too. (just went to market helped mommy do some fhhrhaqfrhahrafb thing for a while fiuuuhh it's 10.30 pm) okay so.... i'm on omegle right now and find a 19 yo boy, well talk about omegle i actually really want to share about my experience being "regular-member" on omegle hahahaha well i'm not that "regular-member" hahahahahaha as you know i have nothing to do when that long holiday came ( 10 apr-19 may) so i just go online not-almost-everyday-but-well-you-can-say-that whateverrrrrr~ so i have not-so-many experience but i can say i had valuable experience. I met some people with different characteristic and thoughts.
Sometimes if i the day is my day i find a good one and have a nice chat. Ya-you-know-lah.

 

i'm lil bit sleepy /hoam :O

right now it's almost 00.00

stalking some cute tomboys is my new hobby actually HAHAHAHAH Hell yeah. Here are some cute tomboys i find attractive

My Lovely Tina Suppanad ❤❤❤❤❤

Cute Doctor Jeab Lalana  ❤❤❤❤

So Manly Annindy Ann  ❤❤❤

Fuckin' Hot Erika Linder

I really want to upload their photos but my connection suckssssssss

well byeee

Ugly Duck

Iseng-iseng liat tulisan dulu di folder pc. I found a story i've made when i'm in the bad of the bad mood (i guess)
the tittle is "UGLY DUCK"
here it is

You know I feel so angry, hopeless, and treat unfairly , the reason?  Cause I was born being not-so-good-looking, I don’t have fair skin and I’m over weight those two things ruined my life my entire mood whenever I remember how miserable I am.  Can’t god just give me those things? . When I was in elementary the only plus I have is “Smart”  .  I am smarter than anyone in school cause no one can’t beat me in the first rank of class. So when I envy towards someone cause they skinny, I can accept and thinking that god must be fair cause everybody has their plus-minus ,so the plus I have is I am smart. But…. by the time flies,  I went to junior high school AND now Iam senior ,  I realized that i’m not that smart, well  I might be smarter than some people but it’s not the plus , cause everyone can beat me I mean I’m not that smart who in the first rank of class or have good grades I’m just a common girl with full of lacking. I’m not special . Where is the “Everyone’s all the same they have plus-minus” ? the only I have is minus. I have nothing to being proud about, I have nothing to show off or even make my own self proud to be me.  My friend were beautiful even some of em’ have fair skin and ALMOST ALL OF EM’ are skinny!!!! You know I never have close friend who has body bigger than me. It’s not fair because I always trying to lose weight but the result? SUCKS! Ican’t even lose 1 kg. Whenever I go to the canteen and all of my friends can choose their food happily cause they have no worry about their weight cause they already fuckin slim. But me? I also want to! I want to choose my meals happily without getting worried. But I CAN’T and always end up full of regrets . A friend even eat much more than me but she still in her ideal weight fuck me right? I always feel desperate whenever I look in the mirror on may way home. Stoop-shouldered, fat T____T

How Are You?

Whoa!!! it almost 3 months i didn't make any post.

Hello people ! How are you? Mine is amazing. I've been through many hard days.

UKOM...

Tryout...

Ujian Praktek...

Ujian Nasional......

And now All is finished. I feel so relieved right now. As you know being student in the 12th grade is not that easy haha ^^~. But i feel so happy cause i could pass all those exams. And now i'm preparing myself to go to the college OR getting a job well i haven't make any choice. I can only hope the best for myself and my life ahead. 

I feel happy and also sad. I'm happy cause now i'm becoming more mature haha i'm not daddy's little girl anymore it means i can make my own decision for my own life ga bergantung dengan orangtua (i hope so). TAPI disamping itu juga sedih karena sekarang aku udah cukup umur jadi aku ga bisa seneng-seneng lagi aku harus serius. I'm tottaly fucking scared of becoming an adult. Ditambah lagi i'll lose my friends, my bestfriends. Whom i  share my story with, i don't know if i can meet those kind of people in my future :'( *sobbing*

Irma....❤

Rara...❤

Ema...❤

Loli....❤

Lita...❤

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVELOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVELOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVELOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

We've been through alot together 

i'm scared of losing you all :'(

well, losing friend isn't the only fear i have, there's still few things. But i have to face it and be strong.



to be continued

Cute Nail Polish

Hiiiiiiiiiiiii (^-^)

How are you doing? How's life fellaaass :D

My life full of tight schedules lately! :fiuh

Lita brought his nail polish to school! AAAAAANNNNNDDD Best thing was we're in period :D so we play with hers here are the result, ema the one who polished me hehehehe thanks EMA !

it's glittering nail polish (blue and pink)

hihihi ^^

And today Muthi brings her cute-crack-nail polish, the nail polish which's crack when we put them .

I also brorowed her phone to take picture HAHAHAHAHA..

The colors are Bold Pink(base coat) and baby pink (top coat).

The colors are gold (base coat) and Dark Blue (top coat).

this picture taken by ema (we have fucking so much fun when taking this pic)

 Not only me but Ema and Lita also play with muthi's nail polish. But i only took picture with ema hahaha we're laughing so HARDDDDDD. Cause everyone were in class doing their configuration (practicing for UKOM). But we go out just for take silly picture HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA... XD

this is emas' fingerss

this pic taken by MEEEE

hihihiihhihihihihihi ^_^
oh ya! the crack nail polish is from oriflame :D

Good Bye 2013 welcome 2014

Oke ini emang terlambat banget , tapi ya lebih baik terlambat dari pada tidak sama sekali. Niat nulis sih pas malem tahun baruan ya *ehem* gimana ya seperti tahun baru yang lalu2 gue emang ga ada acara alhasil palingan mentok didepan layar laptop hahaha. Jadi sebelum buat postingan ini gue sempet ngeliat postingan tahun baruan setahun yang lalu dan seteleah gu baca gue ngerasa tahun 2013 dibandingkan dengan 2012 lebih bermakna 2012, kenapa? Ya gue sendiri sih ga tau Cuma gue ngerasa gitu aja contoh kecilnya adalah pas malem tahun baruan setahun yang lalu gue sampe rajin banget nulis postingan sampe ada target-targetnya segala lagi. Ya mungkin memang tahun 2012 lebih berkesan . Tapi tahun berapapun itu berkesan kok dihati gue (?) *ceileh*…

Oke di tahun 2013 itu gue ngerasa mati gaya abis -_- karena gue lebih sering aktif di dunia maya entah kenapa. Sekolah pun waktu itu masih santai banget ga ada yang WAH gitu, oke… gue inget banget awal tahun 2013 itu gue join RPW (RoleplayerWorld) oke emang itu ngga penting abis tapi tapi tapi ya harus gue certain disini. Gue aktif banget di fake world (gue nyebutnya gitu) sampe2 gue ngerasa dunia nyata gue terkikis. Akhir maret sampe agustus gue aktif disitu. sampe akhirnya vacuum 2 bulan balik lagi oktober kemarin. Gue ga mau cerita panjang lebar disini mengenai RPW karena bisa dilihat di postingan lama gue. Pokoknya tahun 2013 tahun online gue deh ‘-‘)b. Dan ditahun 2013 juga gue genap berusia 17 tahun kalo kata orang sih ‘sweet seventeen’ tapi ya buat gue sekedar umur yang nambahdoang xD…… waktu ultah dikerjain sama temen-temen gitu doing sih wakakaka tapi ya lebih berkesan daripada tahun-tahun sebelumnya. Thanks ya !! mungkin postingan ini akan ga jelas dan sedikit abis karena seperti yang gue bilang tahun 2013 itu tahun gue aktif di Roleplayer World sampe2 kehidupan gue luangin sepenuhnya disana. Ga guna? Emang! Tapi ya mau gimana lagi toh udah berlalu juga xD. Ditahun 2013 juga gue semakin deket dengan temen-temen seneng rasanya :D terus akhir tahun kemarin sekelas ngadain pengambilan foto untuk buku tahunan itu juga momen yang ga akan gue pernah gue lupain HAHAHAHA *oke cukup*. Terus tahun 12013 juga gue mulai mau membaca (baca fanfiction lebih tepatnya) terus imajinasi gue juga bercabang kemana-mana. Ya segitu doang kali ya tahun 2013.



Untuk tahu 2014 gue punya beberapa target sih mudah-mudahan aja tercapai amiin

1. Ngejalanin UKOM , US, UN Lancaaaarrr

2. Bisa dapetin kerja yang enak.

3. masuk PTN.
Tiga hal pokok dan besar itu aja sih tahun 2014 yang bakalan gue fight :D

Kalo resolusi sendiri gue ga ada Cuma tahun ini gue punya Bucket List hahaha Cuma dua hal sih yang pengen banget gue lakuin dan kepikiran di otak gue

1. Nonton bioskop sendirian.
2. Order baju di online shop.
Oke itu emang biasa banget tapi kedua hal diatas belum pernah gue lakuin jadi ya tahun ini gue pengen ngelakuin nya. Semoga terwujud amiiiiiinnnnn