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 'Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one'

— Bruce Lee

I'm Back.

I know you miss me hehe:D

Talking about the quote above, i just realized that bruce lee was right, never pray for an easy life because life will never be easy, when you think your life's going easy there are two things. First. You will never get a lesson. Second. Because you have no lesson you'll never learn. Learning is the important thing for human kind to keep alive in this reality, just like how could einstein found that theory of relativity if he didn't learn how to solve it? why we should go to school and have education? because our parents want us to learn something in school that will make us become a better person in the future. How could we walk if we never try to learn how to walk?

Hello! This Monika speaking. The previous one is not me. The person who typed the paragraph above is not me xD

I'm so happy and feel relieved right now because tonight and tomorrow i'm freeee ! No more  back-breaking-job! because tomorrow i'm gonna stay at home and enjoy the moment. YEEAAAAAHHHHHH

So talking about what i have done in the past few days, there are millions tons of words i could tell you but i don't know if i can do it or not, so the only thought that came cross my mind every single time now is "reality is fucking cruel, reality is fucking cruel, reality is fucking cruel, reality is fucking cruel, reality is fucking cruel. " that words keep coming on my mind T_T okay i'm not gonna cry, but you know, this little girl need shoulder to lay this pity head on, and take a break! in my workplace i met new people who are different from what i've met in school. No! they're not being mean to me or i get scolded by them but, their gaze towards me makes feel uneasy every single time and moreover they really love mocking behind me, underestimate me and think some stupid shits about me, sometimes i wanna cry and tell them that i'm just like other people, i can do what other people do, but i can't . Everything turns out, become different from the old one, in the workplace there's no people who kinder than your school friends, and there's no people who more care than your bestfriend, all of them are careless, they don't give a fuck about you BUT if we talk about that talent "mocking behind someone' back" they are the winners. When they give their humiliating gaze towards me, there are only 2 options i have. One. I try to not give a shit and. Two. I  try to accept it. But sometimes i choose both of them, first  trying/pretending to not give a single fuck and then accept all those gazes and think that "i'm just popular and they really wanna know me". That's it, and in the end there are so many things i learned from that, for example

do not ever underestimate and humiliate someone by their weakness because, One. There's no people who worth to be humiliated and underestimated, Two. If we do it to a person we are more pathetic than that person.

And for me seeing someone do something harsh or bad to me is the sign for myself to never do that to other people because i know how the feel as being humiliated.

When you've been treated unfairly by someone:

Bad people will take a revenge by treating someone bad and do something harsh to other people.

Good people will take a lesson by never treat someone that way because they know how that feel.

Ed Sheeran - A team [Indonesian Translate]

Hello! this is monika speaking.

I've been listening some Ed Sheeran' songs lately, aaaand i love it! His voice is like breeze in the morning come to fill the lonely soul and warm those every cold and brittle heart out there~ So, here are the lyric aaand Indonesian translate. Hope you Enjoy it!


White lips, pale face
Breathing in snowflakes
Burnt lungs, sour taste
Light's gone, day's end
Struggling to pay rent
Long nights, strange men

And they say
She's in the Class A Team
Stuck in her daydream
Been this way since eighteen
But lately her face seems
Slowly sinking, wasting
Crumbling like pastries
And they scream
The worst things in life come free to us
'Cause we're just under the upper hand
And go mad for a couple grams
And she don't want to go outside tonight
And in a pipe she flies to the Motherland
Or sells love to another man
It's too cold outside
For angels to fly
Angels to fly

Ripped gloves, raincoat
Tried to swim and stay afloat
Dry house, wet clothes
Loose change, bank notes
Weary-eyed, dry throat
Call girl, no phone

And they say
She's in the Class A Team
Stuck in her daydream
Been this way since eighteen
But lately her face seems
Slowly sinking, wasting
Crumbling like pastries
And they scream
The worst things in life come free to us
'Cause we're just under the upper hand
And go mad for a couple grams
And she don't want to go outside tonight
And in a pipe she flies to the Motherland
Or sells love to another man
It's too cold outside
For angels to fly
An angel will die
Covered in white
Closed eye
And hoping for a better life
This time, we'll fade out tonight
Straight down the line

And they say
She's in the Class A Team
Stuck in her daydream
Been this way since eighteen
But lately her face seems
Slowly sinking, wasting
Crumbling like pastries
They scream
The worst things in life come free to us
And we're all under the upper hand
Go mad for a couple grams
And we don't want to go outside tonight
And in a pipe we fly to the Motherland
Or sell love to another man
It's too cold outside
For angels to fly
Angels to fly
To fly, fly
For angels to fly, to fly, to fly
For angels to die



Indonesian Translate

Terjemahan Indonesia

Next Level

 "Get ready to the next Level of this game called LIFE"

Hello this is monika at your service! 

Miss me? 

Hehehe

I’ve been very busy lately :D but that’s good because it means i have something to do, i'm no longer stay-at-home girl, which is usually i've spent by doing nothing . Recently, I was busy looking for a job,  and now……. Alhamdulillah I got a job eventhou it’s not a job that I was hoping for but the good thing is i'm officially out of my comfort zone as a student and start to challenge myself . I met new people, new faces and new experience HAHAHAHAHAHA. And the only thing i know is..... that I AM A COWARD AND A PESSIMIST. Yes! i'm a pessimist and i don't know that i can be this pessimist. I'm too scared. Insecure. And full of worries but i'm very grateful that i have strong, and optimist parents. They always encouraged me whenever i'm down. They don't let me suffered alone because things getting harder, people become mean to me, worries will come to me everytime, and yes John Legend was right! He's Right! "The world is beating you down" and the only thing you should know that whenever you fall always remember you have to stand up and be okay because everthing will be aright in the end. I hope so. And i'm also glad to hear news about my friends where Ema and Loli ready for their college-life, Irma Rara and Lita fighting for the job they have just like me. LIME now is A group of Busy girls. Hope we can meet in the next time :)

Selamat tanggal 11 September

WHOA! As today September 11th I’m officially 18! YEAAAAYYYY Hip hip hooray! Hip hip hooray!

I’m so so HAPPY  ^^! This year's different! SO different with another years ago,  I celebrated my birthday with my family, my parents and my lil bro, this year also the first time I celebrate with happiness because as what i always wish to god, that i want my family back, AND YES! this year my family is back :D there's no war in home, no tears and the important thing is............... dad and mom remember that today is my birthday !!!!!!!!!! hehe :* (gak biasanya mereka ingat secepat itu) in the early morning when i haven't even wake up, they already talked about my birthday in the living room, talk about what gift they should give to me, well that means in this year my parents getting better than before and of course Alloh granted my wishes :D Allhamdulillah.

*coughs* well, so.... im now 18, and in this age i should be maturer than last year and of course be better than before (i hope so, amin) . I've been through so many meaningful moments of my life , and i'll never forget all those moments i've passed with laughs and tears, those moments that made me become the now Monika :D, i feel the significant changes in myself :D i can't tell what is like but i feel like......... i feel i'm becoming more mature in each year, and that's the good thing i should be grateful, and the only wish my father said to me was he hoped i'll soon get a better job and chase my dream :D

Talking about birthday, i also wanna share my last year birthday experience, that was the last time :'( i celebrated in school and the first and last time i blow candle in class, OMO! i suddenly miss that moment so muchhhh ❤❤ i still remember when the class tricked me and yah! Bu Dina! i got tricked by em' it was................. awkward, embarrassing and annoying moment HAHAHAHA thanks guys!

 this is the pics taken from last year birthday.

that was a great time :D

The point is i'm very grateful Alloh still give me the chance to live my life till this moment, and had given me so many things that i couldn't even tell, and i hope i can be better person, all the good things will come to me and may the luck always in my favor. Be stronger and more patient, and of course hope i can get a better life in the future AMEEEEEEEEN :D