Jadi Dewasa itu Ga Enak (Part 2)

Haaaaiiiiii

Mau terusin postingan “Jadi dewasa itu ga Enak (part1)” heheheh… postingan itu sebenernya udah lumayan lama, awalnya mau dilanjutin dekat-dekat dengan tanggal itu tapi ternyata? Who knows? bakalan dilanjutin tahun ini ? ya begitulah kira-kira hidup, cepet banget berubah. Well itu kan tahun 2012 dua tahun yang lalu, sekarang? (ga tau mau nulis apa xD) tapi yang jelas gue sekarang udah lulus SMK (oh ya sekarang lagi belajar bahasa inggris makanya beberapa postingan sebelumnya pakai bahasa inggris. Ya walaupun belum bener at least gue mau coba. Tapi sekarang mau nulis pakai bahasa Indonesia dulu). Rasanya sekarang tuh gue udah mulai memasuki hidup yang sebenar-benarnya tolong digaris bawahi dan di bold ya Hidup yang sebenarnya yap! Betul banget! gue ngerasain segalanya berubah, dan sulit ga tau ya itu cuma gue aja yang ngerasain or semua orang yang seumuran gue juga ngerasain, ini gue yang kelewat pinter makanya banyak mikir atau bodoh karena cuma bisa mikir dan khawatir tapi ga berusaha untuk menyelesaikan apa yang gue pikirin. Oke gue lebay tapi jujur deh gue ga tau kenapa bisa begini gue ngerasa awal-awal gue lulus SMK ini

"Virtual Friends"

“Kita dapat menemukan teman dimanapun, bahkan dikesunyian.”



Semakin kesini gue semakin “Anti Social” entah kenapa I’m not as easy going as I used to. Karena udah punya pengalaman dikecewain sama temen , dekat dengan orang yang bertolak belakang dengan gue alhasil I put myself out of circle. But mengacu dengan kutipan yang diawal kali ini mau sedikit curhat nih…. Oia gue lagi belajar bahasa inggris jadi beberapa postingan yang lalu pakai bahasa inggris ya walaupun belum bener banget at least gue udah mau mencoba ^^~ kasih thumbs up dong -_- . Okedeh so I’m gonna share my lil story about “Virtual Friends” ya you know lah what I mean . Gue punya beberapa temen virtual yang gue kenal dari beberapa situs dan kesempatan , daaaaannnn I’m so happy to have em’ karena apa? Mereka punya kelebihan yang ga dimiliki oleh temen real gue hahaha. Pertama mereka ada disaat temen real gue ga ada disamping gue so kadang DAN akhir” ini kalau mau sekedar hilangin penat, capek dan sedih itu bisa ke mereka lewat chat ya gitu deh hehe..

Let me introduce my Virtual Friends ( Gue posting ini karena gue appreciate banget sama mereka karena jarak dan juga kondisi ga menyebabkan mereka untuk berhenti baik sama gue)

Graduation Day

WOHOOOOOOO

I have nothing to say about,but i'm officially graduated hehehe! yeaaayy hiphip hore!
Yesterday was my graduation day a bit disappointed of the event cause it's too long and too much contains not-so-important things. Aaaaannnd that day i had headache it was sooooo terribly sucks  :"( so i didn't really enjoy the event

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Jangan dibaca! Tulisan Absurd

I can’t sleep because I have so many thoughts on my mind. I’m under pressure right now life’s getting hard. . My father’s sick for almost 3 days actually almost a month but the last three days his condition getting worse . And so today I’m officially graduate from high school and I’m also quite satisfied of my score hehe Allhamdulillah Ya Alloh , but I’m still on my periode so I can’t Sholat :( so i can't show to Alloh how grateful I am today /crying a river/. But in the other hand I feel so sad cause of my fathers’ condition. He didn’t go to work for a week I don’t know how tell this (well I shouldn’t tell this on here heheheheh) well the point is tonight I can’t sleep for some reasons so I’m gonna write something absurd now xD

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Let’s talk about my mom. I don’t know but day by day i adore her in unique way. You know sometimes she can be an evil, but sometimes she can be like an angel too. (just went to market helped mommy do some fhhrhaqfrhahrafb thing for a while fiuuuhh it's 10.30 pm) okay so.... i'm on omegle right now and find a 19 yo boy, well talk about omegle i actually really want to share about my experience being "regular-member" on omegle hahahaha well i'm not that "regular-member" hahahahahaha as you know i have nothing to do when that long holiday came ( 10 apr-19 may) so i just go online not-almost-everyday-but-well-you-can-say-that whateverrrrrr~ so i have not-so-many experience but i can say i had valuable experience. I met some people with different characteristic and thoughts.
Sometimes if i the day is my day i find a good one and have a nice chat. Ya-you-know-lah.

 

i'm lil bit sleepy /hoam :O

right now it's almost 00.00

stalking some cute tomboys is my new hobby actually HAHAHAHAH Hell yeah. Here are some cute tomboys i find attractive

My Lovely Tina Suppanad ❤❤❤❤❤

Cute Doctor Jeab Lalana  ❤❤❤❤

So Manly Annindy Ann  ❤❤❤

Fuckin' Hot Erika Linder

I really want to upload their photos but my connection suckssssssss

well byeee

Ugly Duck

Iseng-iseng liat tulisan dulu di folder pc. I found a story i've made when i'm in the bad of the bad mood (i guess)
the tittle is "UGLY DUCK"
here it is

You know I feel so angry, hopeless, and treat unfairly , the reason?  Cause I was born being not-so-good-looking, I don’t have fair skin and I’m over weight those two things ruined my life my entire mood whenever I remember how miserable I am.  Can’t god just give me those things? . When I was in elementary the only plus I have is “Smart”  .  I am smarter than anyone in school cause no one can’t beat me in the first rank of class. So when I envy towards someone cause they skinny, I can accept and thinking that god must be fair cause everybody has their plus-minus ,so the plus I have is I am smart. But…. by the time flies,  I went to junior high school AND now Iam senior ,  I realized that i’m not that smart, well  I might be smarter than some people but it’s not the plus , cause everyone can beat me I mean I’m not that smart who in the first rank of class or have good grades I’m just a common girl with full of lacking. I’m not special . Where is the “Everyone’s all the same they have plus-minus” ? the only I have is minus. I have nothing to being proud about, I have nothing to show off or even make my own self proud to be me.  My friend were beautiful even some of em’ have fair skin and ALMOST ALL OF EM’ are skinny!!!! You know I never have close friend who has body bigger than me. It’s not fair because I always trying to lose weight but the result? SUCKS! Ican’t even lose 1 kg. Whenever I go to the canteen and all of my friends can choose their food happily cause they have no worry about their weight cause they already fuckin slim. But me? I also want to! I want to choose my meals happily without getting worried. But I CAN’T and always end up full of regrets . A friend even eat much more than me but she still in her ideal weight fuck me right? I always feel desperate whenever I look in the mirror on may way home. Stoop-shouldered, fat T____T