I’ve been thinking a lot to do this and now I mean it.
Hello!
It’s been awhile isn’t it? this crap of mine which people call “Blog” is going nowhere. I should have made the annual New-Year post which I usually do, but shit happened so, I didn’t. I had many ideas on my mind to what topic I should write for my blog, but instead I chose to sleep. It’s just, I think there’s no point of writing anymore. Besides, I don’t have any interesting story to tell. So I kept silent. But suddenly I miss writing. I miss pouring everything, feelings, emotions, imagination, anger, confusion, unsatisfaction into words. So I reread some of my posts to give me a little support or maybe idea. And thank god, it did gave me an idea. There’s one thing that came across my mind after I reread some of my posts, it was the thought of, how unprofessional-inconsistent blogger I was. It’s been six years but the way I write is stay the same. How can someone be so random and childish at a time and happily show it to the public? I am ashamed of myself. Look at how I wrote in bahasa and then the other day I wrote in english, then bahasa, and back to english again. The time I said this blog is like my diary actually I really mean it and yes it feels like my real diary. A diary of a professional moron. And I hate it. I hate when someone read my post and think the writer is so childish, inconsistent and random, what more sad is that someone who reads the post and thinks like that is, myself. I am embarassed at my own self.
So, I decided to change. Change for the good. From now on, I will post in english, I don’t care if there’s grammar error after I post it, I just want to write, nothing else. I will post a content that has value, meaning and informative. Even if it’s my life story. I will keep posting content about Tina but it’s not my first priority. Also, I deleted some of my posts that I think really embarassing, hahahahaha. If this were my Diary, it will still be my diary but in more…serious way. So when I reread my own post I’ll feel better, get something new and useful. Not just get the feeling of nostalgia. I hope so.
